#1

What do I want with myself? It is not enough for me to do what you as a human being are expected to do. Then I’m no longer in my own life, then I’m probably just who someone else wants me to be.

I want more with and in my life, I need to find the human I want to be. To develop and live out of my own life. Then get more response from others. The more genuine I am in myself, the more appreciation I get from others.

# 2

It is in a way extremely sad in my life, as the world “temporarily” behaves strange. I feel like I’ve failed the world. So I think that I can only behave well with myself now, others must be allowed to take responsibility for their lives. If they care about how I behave, they haven’t opened their eyes to their own lives. Are they themselves afraid that they will be left behind by others?

Makes me think they don’t know who they are. Have probably not thought of themselves as living beings, but more as “powerful strength and capacity”. Power and superior appearance reveal to me insecurity and weakness. It portrays today’s politics as unconscious and fearful. At the same time as hard connections in the world on war, and as our society has begun to behave. They want us, who take our personal steps towards and with ourselves, to feel ashamed of who we are. As we show ourselves to be “sharper” in ourselves. The “powerful force” thus unfortunately presents itself badly, but they do not understand that. If there is no outside-world competence, there is also no empathy and self-awareness towards the outside world. Humanity is limited more than how human capacity presents itself.

If I want to be good, I must first of all get along well with myself. That I can thus socialize well with the outside world.